Goodbye Elmo

Elmo left us on April 2, 2014 at age of 16. For years every morning, rain or shine, I'd take him to the park for a walk, except last two days of his life while he was too weak to stand up.

Though he has left us, many times I felt his presence as if he was showing appreciation to me that he has had a good life. One example was when I was in ashram, TN for Samyama sadhana on April 16-20. Towards the end of the sadhana, I got "stuck" and can go no further. Elmo showed up and gently showed me the way, the way of non-doing, the way of life. He showed me what life really is, the life that  I have been searching for all over the world, but found it at the tip of my nose.

I went to Isha Yoga Center in Coimbatore, India twice for Samaya program, twice I was "stuck" at the same place, no matter how hard I struggled, it was useless. This time I thought I was going to give up again, except Elmo came to help.

Thank you Elmo. Thank you for showing me how to breathe, what life is. You are my life.

"Life is not in our activity, not in our possessions, and not in what we touch, taste, see or smell. You are life- the rest are things"- Sadhguru

Perfect storm

"Spirituality means to put your evolutionary process on fast forward"- Sadhguru

When I read today's quote from Sadhguru, I cannot help but bow down my head and let the tears flowed. In late 2012, beginning of 2013, The storm of life was hitting me hard, it was like everything I owned, everything I thought was me, was drifting away. I was losing the situations, I was losing the last bit of control that I thought I had. Even breathe was leaving me by the moment.

So I did what anyone one could have done. I yelled out to Sadhguru, save me Sadhguru!! One day while I was doing my practice, this awareness arose, "I have fast forwarded your life, anything is about to happen, let it happen in this life time. If this is too much for you, I can slow it down." What a sweet pleasant surprise from Sadhguru.

The storm went on for another 6 months, many times I was still struggling, trying to get control of the situations, but it failed every time- until I completely surrendered. No more self control, simply let go.

Today, looking back at this perfect storm. I am so grateful for Sadhguru. Together, we did it. Transformation takes life, life takes transformation. Be glad that hardships is looming in the horizon!! Remember, Sadhguru is watching!!

volunteer at LA Inner Engineering

"Putting the well being of others above your own creating a different kind of strength, a strength will carry you thru life and beyond"- Sadhguru

I often wonder how to experience life beyond this world. Years following Sadhguru, attending all kinds of programs, all I got was a glimpse of mystical here and there. Last Sept I volunteered at World Peace Day, I experienced something so dramatic that I could not explain. Sadhguru has mentioned so many times that to get to heaven, one must learn how to volunteer, now I understand fully.

I volunteered again in LA Inner Engineering 2 weeks ago, once again I was in heaven!! With Sadhguru!!

Have you touched sadhguru's hands?

Have you touched Sadhguru's hands? 

Touch my hand

Before my voice will falter

Sit with me

Until the shadows go

Become me

Before I am no more. 

- Sadhguru

A friend of mine sent me this quote, as I read it, I was overwhelmed with Sadhguru's presence.

I have sat with Sadhguru with the long shadows beside me, I have been with sadhguru's presence without hearing Him say anything. I have been in such dimension that there was only one between us. I also have often heard Him say that to make the best use of Him while He is still here.

Dear Sadhguru, let me become you, before you are no more. 

let go and let be

I have been conducting monthly sathsang for more than a year and half. It started out as a predictable training procedure for the possibilities, now I have a very different perception and experience.

Last 3-4 sathsangs, I began to experience something I have never felt before. I began to notice the collective energy that was surging in the hall, then the mantra and Sadhguru's presence all coming together beautifully. By then you began to see tears coming out of people's eyes. You see all the meditators become one. In that silence, we are it.


Spiritual process is a heightened level of abandon. You do not abandon life – you abandon the straight jacket of a personality that you created for yourself- Sadhguru

a joyful day in heaven

A dear friend came visit during the weekend. She was taking pictures of me as she is expressing happiness thru the pictures. She asked me to think of something happy, I grimmed, hesitated for a moment. Then she said, tell me about the first time I met Sadhguru. I thought about it for a few seconds, my heart opened up, smile came naturally. Next thing I know, the near by trees, flowers, birds, stone  they all became alive, they reached out to me and greeted me like never before. It has always been here how come I never noticed ? See if you see happiness in these pictures?

"If you allow the source of creation within you to find expression, joyful is the only way you can be"- Sadhguru

breathe to enlightenment

There were times that whole day went by, and I did not even notice my breathing, yet sometimes when I was fully alert, every cells of my body will respond to the breath, especially between inhale and exhale. I often wonder why?

The same is true with the sound, one morning while I was sitting there meditating, suddenly this chirping sound from a bird entered me, and my whole body responded as if I knew that bird.

Existence is everywhere and nowhere, it depends on our reception. So close your eyes now, and breathe.

If you inhale properly, everything that is worth knowing is right here. You can inhale a Buddha, a Patanjali, or a Jesus right now, because they also breathed the same air. If you do it with full awareness, everything in existence is a way to your enlightenment. Every atom in existence is a doorway to your ultimate nature. Which one you use is your choice. If you are willing to give yourself to it, you could liberate yourself by eating an apple.- Sadhguru