Shambhavi initiation

"If you open up your body, mind and emotions, your life will be pretty good. If you open up your energy system, it will become magical"- Sadhguru

As some of my dearest friends are preparing themselves to attend the Shambhavi initiation in about a week, I can not help but experiencing the tremendous joy and excitement in me. I remembered how the initiation broke me down completely and rebuilt within me a new life, a new energy which I have never experienced before. I received a major overhaul of my body, mind and emotions. During the initiation, the flood gate of my tears opened up, I cried like a baby the first time in a long while ever since I was born, Sadhguru carried me into His laps and poured out the kind of Love that cleansed me from inside out. I was never the same since that day.

Now that my friends are ready to go thru the same process, my tears and heart expand with Sadhguru's Love as time getting closer for them.

May Sadhguru's Love touches you like He has touched millions.

Sadhguru's hand writing- Divinity manifests in words

Sadhguru is always with you

Last Isha Kriya Session of 2014 was held on Dec 11, it was a stormy night, as a rain storm was gliding thru, I drove myself to host the event, thinking I should have cancelled the event, not that many people would come I said to myself, it is wasting time.

As soon as the Session started, I was hit by Sadhguru's presence really hard, I started crying. As if some kind of conversation between Sadhguru and me had begun. First He asked me why considered cancelling the event, was because fewer people are coming? He said he has always been here with me, is that not enough? Then He said for 30 years, He has not missed a single event, what I have been doing now is what he had experienced when he first started the journey 30 years ago, how lucky for me to experience the same? I cried even more.

That night after the session, I shared with 8 participants and 3 volunteers how I first met Sadhgru and how Isha has changed my life forever. I saw tears on some faces, it was a good night, a good session.

Devotion is a dimension that will allow you to sail across even if you do not know the way- Sadhguru

You have to be born again

Recently a dear friend came to me with a lot of pain and fear, because his life is falling apart. Nothing is working right now he said, if nothing changes quickly, I don't know where I will be by next month. I saw nothing but sadness in his eyes.

I congratulated him because not long ago I went thru the same life and death experience. I chose death, which is to let go of control and let existence take over my life. I am glad I did, it was not easy but it was very simple, because you don't need to do anything. My life is never the same after that because existence is in charge, not me any more. My perception/ awareness has gone up ten folds since. This is beyond logic. I see divinity every day, right here within me.

At certain point on our spiritual journey, suddenly one day you will reach this point where there is no more path, either you will have to take a leap of faith- consciously choose death to who you are, or continue the path which created by you over and over again.

Make wise decision my dear friend, time is ticking.

If you have to be born once again, you must die first- Sadhguru

absolute devotion

I had opportunity to work with one of Sadhguru's trained teacher since April. She is very young and focused. She is always full of energy, never complained. While we all get tired towards the end of the day, I think her day had just begun. She is very sharp, has absolute clarity on any subjects that we brought up. One time I was praising her that how beautiful to be with her, and she corrected me right away saying it is not her, it is all Sadhguru.

I learned from her the absolute devotion, one point focus of volunteering. Many times I was watching her working, it brings tears to my eyes, There was no rest for her anytime of the day, just selfless devotion. She does not own a home, no possessions, but she has the world.

looking back last five months working with her, it turned out to be such a blessing. I feel alive, grateful. The awareness is surging, and the best above all, I noticed Sadhguru's presence more than ever before.

Devotion is when your involvement with life is so absolute that yourself do not matter anymore- Sadhguru

Life is involement

It has been a while since last blog, not just because work has been busy, also because Sadhguru has been in California for a couple of months, all activities were intensified.

Looking back last few months, seems like motion pictures fast forwarded.  Activity after activity, no time to even think about what was going on. I have driven more mileage last two months than previous year altogether. This has been involvement at its best.

One thing I did not expect, however, was how much inner growth has happened for all of us among mediators. Last Saturday during monthly Sathsang, I could not help but noticing each meditator looked like a beautiful flower, one by one, as each one of us blooming right in front of our eyes. How do you explain this awesome experience? We all have become one, touched by the existence at that moment.

"Life is involvement, where there is no life, there is no involvement"- Sadhguru

Jesus and the cross

for 25 years, used to be a christian, I learned from Bible that Jesus was nailed on the cross because he loves us, willing to die on the cross for us in order to wash away our sins.

As I continue to grow in Sadhguru, I now have a different understanding of this. To experience life, to be life, you have to step aside, you are in the way. In other words, you need to devoid yourself. To simply let go of controlling of your own life, because you really cannot control any thing in life.

The night Jesus was about to be crucified, he asked the divine to take away the cup of death, it is too painful facing death. Yet he also said only Father's will be done, not his own. Meaning if life has to happen, self has to go, therefore death on the cross, no more self. Once self is gone, life rushes in, and your life begins.

This morning one of the meditator I admire and respect very much called, she was in tears telling me how she gave her heart and soul to volunteering, yet some how she was misunderstood, unjustified by the situations and people around her. Listening to her, I felt her frustrations and pain. Suddenly this Jesus and the cross image came to my mind, and I shared with her, she was very inspired and encouraged. Because she is in this critical transitional place, either she becomes Christ, transcend her self thru cross like Jesus, or continue to identify herself in worldly manner and suffer.

Volunteering is a process of giving yourself. It’s an opportunity to give yourself- Sadhguru

Goodbye Elmo

Elmo left us on April 2, 2014 at age of 16. For years every morning, rain or shine, I'd take him to the park for a walk, except last two days of his life while he was too weak to stand up.

Though he has left us, many times I felt his presence as if he was showing appreciation to me that he has had a good life. One example was when I was in ashram, TN for Samyama sadhana on April 16-20. Towards the end of the sadhana, I got "stuck" and can go no further. Elmo showed up and gently showed me the way, the way of non-doing, the way of life. He showed me what life really is, the life that  I have been searching for all over the world, but found it at the tip of my nose.

I went to Isha Yoga Center in Coimbatore, India twice for Samaya program, twice I was "stuck" at the same place, no matter how hard I struggled, it was useless. This time I thought I was going to give up again, except Elmo came to help.

Thank you Elmo. Thank you for showing me how to breathe, what life is. You are my life.

"Life is not in our activity, not in our possessions, and not in what we touch, taste, see or smell. You are life- the rest are things"- Sadhguru

Perfect storm

"Spirituality means to put your evolutionary process on fast forward"- Sadhguru

When I read today's quote from Sadhguru, I cannot help but bow down my head and let the tears flowed. In late 2012, beginning of 2013, The storm of life was hitting me hard, it was like everything I owned, everything I thought was me, was drifting away. I was losing the situations, I was losing the last bit of control that I thought I had. Even breathe was leaving me by the moment.

So I did what anyone one could have done. I yelled out to Sadhguru, save me Sadhguru!! One day while I was doing my practice, this awareness arose, "I have fast forwarded your life, anything is about to happen, let it happen in this life time. If this is too much for you, I can slow it down." What a sweet pleasant surprise from Sadhguru.

The storm went on for another 6 months, many times I was still struggling, trying to get control of the situations, but it failed every time- until I completely surrendered. No more self control, simply let go.

Today, looking back at this perfect storm. I am so grateful for Sadhguru. Together, we did it. Transformation takes life, life takes transformation. Be glad that hardships is looming in the horizon!! Remember, Sadhguru is watching!!

volunteer at LA Inner Engineering

"Putting the well being of others above your own creating a different kind of strength, a strength will carry you thru life and beyond"- Sadhguru

I often wonder how to experience life beyond this world. Years following Sadhguru, attending all kinds of programs, all I got was a glimpse of mystical here and there. Last Sept I volunteered at World Peace Day, I experienced something so dramatic that I could not explain. Sadhguru has mentioned so many times that to get to heaven, one must learn how to volunteer, now I understand fully.

I volunteered again in LA Inner Engineering 2 weeks ago, once again I was in heaven!! With Sadhguru!!

Have you touched sadhguru's hands?

Have you touched Sadhguru's hands? 

Touch my hand

Before my voice will falter

Sit with me

Until the shadows go

Become me

Before I am no more. 

- Sadhguru

A friend of mine sent me this quote, as I read it, I was overwhelmed with Sadhguru's presence.

I have sat with Sadhguru with the long shadows beside me, I have been with sadhguru's presence without hearing Him say anything. I have been in such dimension that there was only one between us. I also have often heard Him say that to make the best use of Him while He is still here.

Dear Sadhguru, let me become you, before you are no more. 

let go and let be

I have been conducting monthly sathsang for more than a year and half. It started out as a predictable training procedure for the possibilities, now I have a very different perception and experience.

Last 3-4 sathsangs, I began to experience something I have never felt before. I began to notice the collective energy that was surging in the hall, then the mantra and Sadhguru's presence all coming together beautifully. By then you began to see tears coming out of people's eyes. You see all the meditators become one. In that silence, we are it.


Spiritual process is a heightened level of abandon. You do not abandon life – you abandon the straight jacket of a personality that you created for yourself- Sadhguru

a joyful day in heaven

A dear friend came visit during the weekend. She was taking pictures of me as she is expressing happiness thru the pictures. She asked me to think of something happy, I grimmed, hesitated for a moment. Then she said, tell me about the first time I met Sadhguru. I thought about it for a few seconds, my heart opened up, smile came naturally. Next thing I know, the near by trees, flowers, birds, stone  they all became alive, they reached out to me and greeted me like never before. It has always been here how come I never noticed ? See if you see happiness in these pictures?

"If you allow the source of creation within you to find expression, joyful is the only way you can be"- Sadhguru

breathe to enlightenment

There were times that whole day went by, and I did not even notice my breathing, yet sometimes when I was fully alert, every cells of my body will respond to the breath, especially between inhale and exhale. I often wonder why?

The same is true with the sound, one morning while I was sitting there meditating, suddenly this chirping sound from a bird entered me, and my whole body responded as if I knew that bird.

Existence is everywhere and nowhere, it depends on our reception. So close your eyes now, and breathe.

If you inhale properly, everything that is worth knowing is right here. You can inhale a Buddha, a Patanjali, or a Jesus right now, because they also breathed the same air. If you do it with full awareness, everything in existence is a way to your enlightenment. Every atom in existence is a doorway to your ultimate nature. Which one you use is your choice. If you are willing to give yourself to it, you could liberate yourself by eating an apple.- Sadhguru

the karate kid

Wax on and wax off, do you remember the movie? I watched the movie one more time yesterday, however, I got a very different feeling this time, thanks to my own ever changing life experience.

In order to take the training to another level in such a short time, Mr. Miyagi has to use the familiar environmental setting to train young Daniel LaRusso, the karate kid, which happened to be paint the fence and wash the car, etc. Not seeing any immediate  training progress after many weeks, Daniel complained and doubted the training, until the show down of course and he was surprised to see the result first hand. All this was happening because of Mr. Miyigi.  As he has been there himself, he knows the road map.

When I first met Sadhguru, I had asked Him to help me with my spiritual growth, to be happy and peaceful. Years after practicing yoga and meditation, it seemed like not much of spiritual progress was happening, on top of that, my physical world was falling apart. Wait, what happened to my peace and happiness that I was looking for many years ago?

This is why Sadhguru is so good at being a guru. He knows my shortcomings, until many of my karma were dealt with properly, then, unexpectedly during several Sathsangs, He took me for ride, a ride of life time, a dimension I have never been to nor experienced before. Yes, Daniel LaRusso was lucky to have Mr. Miyagi as Karate teacher, I am lucky to have Sadhguru in this life time as my guru.

"The job of a guru is not to interpret the scriptures but to take you to another dimension of life"- Sadhguru

Bruce Lee

I have been a fan of Bruce Lee for so many years, except I have only admired him as an action movie hero, nothing more, until someone send me one of his quote recently, which totally changed my mind about who he really is.

I began to google him, started looking into his life. I was amazed how fulfilled his life experience has been. I enjoyed reading the quotes from him, and I found out they are very truthful. This kind of expression can not simply happened without inner awakening first.

In the past, Sadhguru had talked about Bruce Lee a few times, just to demonstrate how a vegetarian can be so strong for instance. He never said anything about if Bruce Lee is enlightened or not, but I think Bruce is. Just read the following quotes and tell me what you think?

“The void is that which stands right in the middle of 'this' and 'that'. The void is all-inclusive, having no opposite - there is nothing which it excludes or opposes. It is living void, because all forms come out of it and whosoever realizes the void is filled with life and power and the love of all things.”- Bruce Lee

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Bruce Lee has mastered his body and mind, and left the body at age of 32.

life is a zoo

I often visited the zoo when kids were younger, I cannot help but seeing how restrictive these animals were, many of them were caged or chained in a very small area, they probably think that life is supposed to like this, freedom is not something in their faintest dreams. So eat, sleep and reproduce, every now and then a little pieces of happiness pops up here and there, that's life for them.

Until Sadhguru came into my life for rescue, my life was exactly like those animals in the zoo, even worse, I have much sufferings and pains in my mind that those animals do not share. Was I, a human being better than these animals? The answer is apparent no. I knew something was not adding up, do I just eat, sleep until my time is up? There must be something bigger out there? Thanks to Sadhguru, I now know that something is freedom.

"A mundane life goes from womb to tomb, A life of awareness leads to liberation from the process of life and death"- Sadhguru

Awareness is needed for freedom, but how does awareness come about? Like flower blossoms in the garden, there are a lot of caring and hard work behind the scene. If you follow the tools that Sadhguru has given us, and work on it daily, flower has to blossom, this is law of  Existence.

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stillness and intelligence

"when your mind becomes still, your intelligence explodes" - Sadhguru

Sadhguru often said that the possibility is there except you are in the way. He meant your mind is a barrier to the possibility. We like to be logical, we like to draw boundaries around us for security, for conservation. Looking back in my own case, it is very true indeed. I'd like to be spiritual, only if it meets my terms first. This will not do.

As Existence gradually takes layers and layers of  "me" away, I noticed that there is a certain distance between me and my thoughts. As my mind becomes calmer, my ability to respond is so much greater. I used to get irritated and stressed out easily, but now, I can handle much more work in such a short time. Everything becomes so transparent, very easy to comprehend. Work results are much more satisfactory.

Take a look at my blog for example, I am amazed at all those things that I've been written, first of all I don't know how to write, secondly, most contents apparently came from somewhere, definitely not from me for example.

If you are willing to diminish yourself and be still, the possibility is unlimited.

be willing- the most effective sadhana

" If you perform actions with certain level of awareness, intensity and dispassion, thousand-year meditation can be reduced to ten years. That's what volunteering can do for you."-Sadhguru

When I first started out with Isha, there were many opportunities to participate with various programs, I only wanted to be a participant, not volunteer, because I wanted to make sure that I can see and be with Sadhguru in the event. Years gone by, I often wonder why my spiritual growth is limited, disregard how many times that Sadhguru emphasized the importance of be willing- in everything you do.

Now I know. First be willing, be a volunteer in Isha's events, then gradually, be willing, be a volunteer in everything I do during the day. It does not matter if I am working with Isha , or my own work, it makes no difference, as I give it all at the moment. By doing so, almost every day, I experienced ecstasy here and there, so subtle yet so profound. I am sharing this secret with you, as I hope you and I can reach the highest possibilities in 10 years, not hundreds or thousands of years. Give ourselves up (I mean ego), give it all we can, empty ourselves.

Do it now, when you know Sadhguru is alive and within you. Don't wait till tomorrow, because tomorrow does not exist. Do it now. Leave the complacency of the repetitiveness, notice the boundaries around you, there is more out there, more within.

taking a ride with Sadhguru

In recent Sathsangs with Sadhguru, I was often taken a ride, a ride to a dimension that I have never been, never dreamed of. I often wonder why this is happening? why now but not a year ago? what does it take to get a ride? Since then, I asked Sadhguru can I have more ride? more exotic ride? more experience? And this is the answer..

"So when you sit in a certain space, when you sit in certain energy, if you notice a certain person or a place is creating a certain level of energy, it seems to be a little bigger possibility than what you are, that is the time when you don't think of anything, when you don't ask for anything, you simply sit. If you simply sit, you will get the necessary nutrient to evolve very fast, to mutate from one dimension to another. Once you grow into a certain possibility, everything that is possible in that dimension will anyway happen to you. If you don't grow into that possibility, but just aspire for that, then you are just bringing heaps of trouble upon yourself.- Sadhguru

To ride or not to ride? When you are ready, Sadhguru will take you for a ride. If you are not ready, it will not happen. A new born child is not fit for a 3 mile run, but a child can sit and long for that possibility. When possibility is there, Sadhguru's blessing will arrive when you are least expecting. My prayer is for you to taste that sweetness of life everyday.