forgiveness continued

a few days ago I wrote about forgiveness, forgive others and most importantly, forgive yourself. This is an important process of cleansing, of letting go hidden layers of karma, old wound, old sadness and memories.

My teacher shared with me not long ago that her experience of revisiting an old wound, where an incident happened when she was 3-4, she was misunderstood by her busy mother for a good intention, years went by and she berried it deep because it hurts so much. Now it is time to release it, and it was very painful yet it was also very beautiful because she joined with her mom lately to change the ending.

I was very amazed by this sharing, how can you remember this far back as a childhood. This is not possible at lease for me. Well, I was wrong. This morning, as I was doing my daily practice, I was taken aback to 5 ( I think), I saw this dark secret that I have purposely hidden away all my life, something happened to me where even my parents knew nothing of it. I don't  want to remember, but it was surfacing now. It explained a lot why I have always felt insecure and inferior, everything has to be so serious for me.

I cried on and off through out the day, trusting my guru helping me at this moment for a greater cause.

"Everything that occurs in your life can enrich you if you handle it with awareness"- Sadhguru